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♥ Wednesday, November 28, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Yo hoz!!! Just came back from lunch. . had Roti Prata, Sausage and Egg Prata & one Prata Plaster. . Nice man!! Very full now!!! Gonna grow fatter lerz. . hahax Went to the International Robot Olympics Event in our school after my lunch, had a great time there man!! Really glad that I went there just now. . What a regret if i'm not there. . It was amazing!! Robots Dancing man!! It's so cool lorz. . I even video it lorz. . Gonna post the video once i reach home on my blog and Friendster. . hahax Wanna share to everyone how amazing a robot can be!!! hahax Next time don't even need dancers I think?? Just hired some robots to do the dance. . It's even more entertaining. . hahax

Wish I have one for myself. . hahax If you guys were there will also be so excited as me lorz. . But for those who miss it can view the video on my Friendster hahax Now having Networking lesson. . Doing nothing again~~ Trying to be naughty. . hahax What a bad girl ya. . Heck~~ But my test is next week sia. . Dead Meat man!!! Gonna Heck also?? Nahz~ I don't know. . hahax

Yesterday were kinda pissed off with someone. . But wouldn't care less. . Don't even wanna be bothered. . He's supposed to get the harddisk from me. . Supposed to give me a call at 10.30 a.m. And yet I waited for the whole day. . No news from him. . If he don't need my help lerz, at least also can give me a call/SMS and say "Thanks, I don't need your help lerz. ." or something. . But yet he did Nothing!!! Is it so hard to just drop me a SMS?? Maybe he forgot about me again?? I'm just sick and tired of all this stuffs. . Sick of him. . He's always like that!!! Forget it laz. . I don't wanna be bothered anymore lerz. . Not for him!! i'll rather spent my time caring for others then him. . Cause I don't see the point at all. . A friend that doesn't mean anything to him. . A friend that he can never remember. . A friend that he doesn't give a Damn about. . To me it is no longer a friend. . If he never treats me as a friend then I don't see the point of doing anything for him anymore. . Really Pissed off with him. . It isn't the first time he's doing such things. . I won't give him any chance lerz. . I think we shall end our friendship. . Or it never been ever since to you?? Ya maybe?? Can't be bothered. .

Sometimes when I really gave up on you then you will chat with me in MSN or ask me for help or something. . And I actually response and chat with you. . Am I out of my mind?? Wanted to stay far away from you. . And yet don't know why I still care about you. . Is hard to hate and forget a person I think. . Friendships really mean a lot to me. . That's why I react this way?? I no longer know the answer anymore. . GOD I need you to guide me. . I'm lost in my life. . What should I do?? haix

Anyway, i'm glad I still have a bunch of friends around me. . Not just only him. . I still treasures every friendship I had in my life. .

I know they are always there for me when I needed them. .
I know they will always lend their ears to listen to my sorrows. .
I know they are always there to lend me their shoulders for me to cry on. .
I know. .
I know it all. .
Thanks Guys!!!
Thanks for being by my side. . =)

Labels: Friendships

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5:57 AM

♥ Tuesday, November 27, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Yoz Hoz!!! Morning Morning!!! What an early morning. . Was a bit late for school today. . Reach school at 8.09 a.m. late for 9 minutes. . that's little for me man!!! hahax Cause usually i'll be late for like 10~30 minutes if I can. . hahax Is not good to be late though but just used to be slacking at home doing nothing. . hahax Play around with my hair, choosing what accessories should I wear etc. . hahax That's always the reason why i'm always late. . oOps =X Oh ya I change my hairstyle today. . Not much change actually laz. . I just tied up my hair that's all. . And Yvonne says I look fresh today. . And my hair is so Neat!! OMG Since when my hair is Messy man~~ Is always Neat lorz. . *Trying hard to convince myself* hahax

Yesterday went to Tampines to buy clothes for Wednesday Seminar by Roystern Tan, the producer of the movie "881" at Shangri-la Hotel Singapore. . Heard that he's a funny guy, so I assume Wednesday will be a interesting day. . Should be fun ya?? hahax In the end I didn't get any clothes for myself. . Know why?? Cause my mom is damn picky. . Those I think is fine for me, she don't want. . Those she think is fine for me, I don't like. . So end up didn't buy any. . Went to Stephanie's house (My Beloved Cousin) to get those formal clothes. . Cause last two days I already ask if she have any. . If I can't get my clothes then get from her. . So she say yes. . Thank GOD she have man!! If not I don't know what to wear on Wednesday sia. . hahax And it fits me well I guess. . The top is Black and the bottoms is black too!!! loLz I look so slim and tall with that formal outfit. . Will update the photos On Wednesday if I got take Pictures of myself. . hahax Gonna Zi Lian again. . Look Proffesional when i'm in a formal outfit?? Guess So. . I started to Praise myself when I chat with Thomas on MSN, Guess what he say?? Self-Praise is equals to No Praise. . WTH!!! So bad sia. . hahax Meeting him later. . When he reach school at 10.30 a.m. He needs to transfer his stuffs to my harddisk, have to help him pass those stuffs to his friend. . Like very weird sia. . hahax He's like so rush lorz. . After the transfer of stuffs then he have to rush down to OCC with that heavy Notebook. . Who ask him lazy laz. . Don't wanna waste time go back home put his Notebook down. . Lazy Pig~~ hahax Doing nothing now lei. . Got lab to do. . But lazy to do. . I'm only hardworking on Blogging and Tennis. . hahax Bad girl ya. . hahax Kkz laz. . Go do lab lerz. . Wanna be a good girl!!! hahax

Labels: Seminar By Roystern Tan

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1:03 AM

♥ Sunday, November 25, 2007

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A bad day starts of in the morning~~ What's wrong with my life?? What's wrong with me?? I'm sick and tired~~ Tired of being ignored, Tired of being blame by others, Tired of being misunderstood. . Tired of my parents. . What can i DO?? I'm Really Tired~~ Sick of being here~~ In the World~~ Wishes everything would be fine. . As long as GOD is by my side. . But somehow, somewhere deep in my heart, filled with emptiness, tears, pain. . Why is that so?? I don't know. . Answers unfound~~ Have been dazing everywhere I go. . Every minute when i'm left alone. . Even if i'm around with friends, i'm still dazing out of a sudden. . Mind is blank~~ Simply Blank. . Is my heart too?? I don't know. . Oh Lord Jesus Christ, my Saviour, Please answer to me. . answer to my heart. . I felt so lost. . Even when in my prayers, I still feel so hurt. . In my heart. . Oh Lord, I need you. . Guide me, Teach me how to live, Tell me where should I go. . Teach me how to pray. . Those words that will please you. . I need you Lord. . It's too hard. . Just Too Hard for me to live just by myself without you. . In my life i face all Ups and Downs. . But right now. . Everything seems to be wrong. . My relationship with my parents is te big part that causes all my sorrows. . I Really don't know what to do. . I face difficulties in my life. . No matter what I did they are not happy at all. . I'm just a human being. . Not a robot. . I can't do things the way they want me to. . I have my own thoughts. . I have my own choice and decision. . Why can't they just understand. . Why can't they just accept me the way I am. . I'm tired~~ Really tired~~ Lord but no matter what i'll never give up on you, cause I know you never ever give up on me too. . I glad to receive you in my life. . I really am. . I'll still continue to pray, pray for everyone in my life. . No matter how much I dislike them or how much i loved them. . I'll still pray for everyone. . Cause i know, I know that's the least I am able to do right now. . May God Bless Everyone In My Life. . Forgive Them. . Save Them. . Amen

Labels: I'm Tired. . In Heart and Mind

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7:12 AM

♥ Saturday, November 24, 2007

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Yesterday were really fun man!! I attend my first Bible lesson. . About Salvation etc. . hahax was a short one yesterday. . Before the study went to see them play Tennis. . Was kinda exciting. . So many people were playing there lorz. . The Tennis court were so crowded lorz. . hahax And Coach Shan and Beverly were there too. . They play so good man!! Wanna be like them. . Gonna build up my strength. . Planning to do Sit-ups and Pumpings everyday. . Gonna go for jogging every Saturday or Sunday bahz. . To train my stamina. . hahax need to work even harder now. . hahax Think is kinda hard for me to have Tennis practice this few weeks. . Due to my project. . Jobs schedule were very packed. . Somemore i'm the one who planned it for my group. . Kinda funny ya?? hahax We are short of time right now. . So have to plan our schedule for everyday work. . From Monday to Friday, Plan for every member in our group. . Assigning Jobs for them to do. . And myself of cause. . hahax Hope we are able to finish on time man!!! Really wanna spent more time on Tennis. . But I can't right now. . Time Constrain. . haix But i'll still try to fork out time for it. . I might cut short the time for Tennis on Monday and Friday. . So that I am able to have more time for my project. . haix Really will miss Tennis man!!! It's hard for me not to play for a week. . hahax

And there's another funny thing happen yesterday too!!! The Bus 31 broke down!!! hahax Went back to the Tennis Court right after the Bible Study. . Just on time that Thoms and Ben finish playing. . But Dennis were still playing. . So I followed Thomas and Ben to cafeteria 1 to rest. . We told Dennis that we will be waiting for him in cafeteria 1. . And Guess what?? He didn't heard it. . Then he just went home like that. . WTH!!! Then were chatting and chatting in cafeteria 1 about Tennis stuffz. . Get to talk to Ben hahax he's a nice guy. . Played well in Tennis. . Very well actually~~ hahax Thomas teach me how to do Single Backhand. . Then we talk lots of crap here and there with Ben. . hahax Waiting for bus 31 after all the rest in cafeteria 1. . We got on to a bus and yet broke down. . WTH!!! Is like the bus didn't even move yet lorz. . Then just break down like that. . Sianz~~ Was tired then. . Waited for the next bus. . It was Single deck!! So many people lorz. . Decided to wait for the next one. . Luckily is double deck. . Not many people too. . But we stand. . hahax then talk about Tennis again. . Were dazing. . hahax Cause i felt so extra laz. . They talk about some Tennis stuffs that I don't know. . So kinda weird. . But i'm still listening. . hahax Need to do more research on Tennis I think. . So next time I can be in the conversation. . hahax Kinda tired now~~ Doing Project cum Blogging. . hahax bad girl ya?? Just wanna relax a bit. . By blogging?? maybe?? hahax Okie laz. . Gotta do work lerz. . Will update tmr then =D

Labels: So Yesterday~~

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9:27 AM

♥ Friday, November 23, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Morning!!! woke up at 6.30 a.m. today. .A bit tired laz. . Cause slept at 12.30 a.m. mahz. . So not enough sleep lorz. . hahax were chatting in MSN with Xiao Ting, Thomas, Wee Yee (koR koR), Alan and blar blar blar~~ So kinda busy. . Busy chatting!!! hahax Do blogging as well. . just like now. . hahax Having my first lesson of the day, Computing Math & Programming. . Don't undertand at all. . My fault laz. . Didn't pay attention for the last lesson. . So missed out quite alot. . Sianz man!! Don't know what i'm doing also. . The whole chapter 4 I don't know how to do sia. . Only can understand the front few pages. . Sad laz. . Trying my Best to pay attention. . Kinda sleepy now. . hahax Change of schedule for Tennis lerz. . Every Monday and Friday, Wednesday if possible. . hahax Monday will be right after school at 1 p.m. till about 3 or 4 p.m. so that I am able to rush back to Sun COT for my project, as deadline is near. . So have to spend more time on project. . But still. . don't wanna neglect my Tennis. . Trying my Best to fork out some time for Tennis. . hahax Is hard for me not to play Tennis laz. . If not i'll just rot man!!! Cannot Live Without You (Tennis)!!! =P Monday appointment with Joyce and Dennis. . Cause joyce sms me yesterday, if i'm free to play with her today. . but i'm kinda busy with my schedule so i can't make it today. . then she say she would like to join me on Monday. . hahax It's been so long since the last time we played together. . hahax looking forward to play with her on next week. . hahax

Going to meet Xiao Ting later after school. . she will be reaching my school at 4 p.m. so i'll head to Sun COT first. . Do some work when i'm still free. . got 30 minutes to wait for her. . i end school at 3.30 p.m. today mahz. . hahax Only meet her for about 45 minutes. . She wants to tell me more about the Bible. . She say she just need to take up 45 minutes. . Don't wanna stay for long also. . Cause i still have to go back for projects after that. . I'm a busy person man!!! No time to rest sia. . hahax But i didn't regret at all. . Cause I know is all worth while. . hahax Think i would prefer to study the Bible with Xiao Ting at the Tennis Court. . Cause Thomas, Ben, Dennis and one of his friend is playing today. . So wanna watch them play. . hahax Multi-tasking mahz. . hahax Cause today cannot play, but at least can watch others play also not bad laz. . hahax. .Don't know if Xiao Ting mind or not. . hope she's fine with that. . hahax Pray that everything will goes fine today ya. . God Bless everyone today, Amen.

Labels: Computing Mathematics and Programming

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2:39 AM

♥ Thursday, November 22, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Hey i'm back!!! Were kinda busy last two days. . hahax Went for Tennis with Dennis right after my last lesson, which is Visual Basics. . Once I finish my labsheet then rush out of the lab lerz. . so diaox right?? hahax really don't wanna waste any minute for Tennis man!! Cause after that I have to rush back to Sun Cot to work on my projects. . kinda tiring ya. . but is okie. . as long as I had enjoy during the practice. . hahax But when I rush out of the lab then realise it was drizzling. . Kinda worry and felt so down. . But still. . I go for it. . Never Give Up!!! So went to play for awhile. . Was really wet man!!! Dennis used the roller to dry the floor. . but still a bit wet laz. . thanks for that man!! Every serve I got "holy water" from the Tennis's ball!!! It is filled with dirty water man!!! Everytime I return the ball then it starts spraying the "holy water" on my face. . Yuckx!!!! hope i don't get extra red dots on my face tmr. . hahax Didn't play long today. . were kinda hard to play when the ball is wet. . Everywhere is wet. . didn't expect it to rain man!! Nevermind~~ Just pray that it won't rain tmr and friday. . cause tmr Thomas and Benjamin gonna play Tennis. . Friday Dennis and me gonna play Tennis too!! Just hope that it won't rain for both days. . think i'm gonna watch them play tmr. . hahax Wanna see if they have any improvements. . actually wanna learn from the laz. . =X hahax Oops is so late lerz. . Gonna get to bed man!!! if not tmr can't wake up lerz. . hahax

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3:59 PM

♥ Wednesday, November 21, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Just finish my lunch. . so full now. . when cafeteria 1 to eat Lor Mee. . Never try before in school, so today wanna give it a try. . hahax but not really nice. . No fish der. . and i don't take pork also. . so i only eat the egg and the fish cake stuffz. . hahax Now having Networking lesson, didn't bring book today so i do nothing. . Bad student ya. . hahax Went for photo shooting before lunch. . So damn bored man!!! Waste my time there lorz. . Wait for them to adjust this and that. . then till i wanna sleep ler lorz. . Actually i did sleep there for awhile laz. . While sitting down. . hahax Still feel so FULL now!!! arrgghhhhh~~~~ Wanna vomit lerz. . hahax Nothing to do now lei. . So bored. . See others all doing work. . Scare to join them lei. . So pai sei lorz. . I very shy derz sia. . hahax

Labels: sO FulL~~~~

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6:17 AM

♥ Monday, November 19, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Today went to City Harvest early in the morning. . Meet the Cell Group Leader Xiao Ting at 9.30 a.m . . i was abit late. . hahax a bit tired though cause i slept late last night. . around 2.30 a.m . . so didn't get enough sleep. . hahax but after all it was fun. . I get to learn alot of things of GOD through today's service pastor Rev. Dr. Phil Pringle from Australia. . He's really a funny person. . He tells us about the 6 pages of curses by abraham(Sorry if i spell it wrongly =X). . And Jesus Christ took it all for us. . So that we are being blessed. . Jesus sacrifice himself on the cross and took all the curses all by himself. . Just to saved us from sufferings. . Praise the Lord, Amen. Rev. Dr. Phil Pringle was really great. . He was a song Composer, an Artist (Painter) and of cause a Pastor. . He saved me today. . He prayed for me. . Xiao Ting Prayed for me too. . i was really blessed. . and i feel so happy and relieve after that. . although i'm kinda scare at the beginning, due to a lot of people around me that i don't know. . I don't feel comfortable. . But during the talk i felt better. . As i listens to every word the Pastor says. . i sing along with them although is like singing to myself. . very softly. . hahax

Today was a Good day in the morning and a Bad day in the afternoon. . When to meet my ex. now is my koR koR hahax. . Meet him after the service at Orchard. . then my dad suddenly called me. . I was like feeling kinda weird. . Not a good feeling. . So in the end they found out about my relationship. . They know i break with my ex. lerz. . then is like turning my world upside down lorz. . Got conselling and stuffz like that. . so kinda sad. . but is okie lerz. . After i prayed to GOD, he helped me. . Feel so grateful to him. . Praise the Lord, Amen.

Labels: Praise The Lord. .

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2:14 PM

♥ Sunday, November 18, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Just came back from home not long ago. . hahax Went to Marine Parade today. . Unexpectedly my parents bought me a new phone. . Sony Ericson W880i (Totally black) but i think is nice laz. . hahax is slim also to carry it around. . but not really happy with the nagging part (---->>>My parents) I was kinda excited when i got my new phone. . so i started to call Elizabeth , Chiu Rei and Yvonne. . Can't reach Yvoone at that moment. . but after that she did called back. . so i was like so excited to tell them about my new phone and stuffz. . But right now at the moment. . I'm really down, with dissapointment. . cause of a friend who doesn't treasure our friendship. . not at all. . Really give up lerz. . What can i say?? Nothing at all. . Words are hard to describe the feelings inside me. . I was just complaining about how bad is he as a friend in MSN. . and yet he just offline. . Just like that. . i haven even finish my sentence. . WTH lorz. . is like arrgghhh. . Maybe he just don't wanna hear anything from me. . Am i really that annoying?? I just have nothing to say right now. . Really give up lerz. . i don't think he really value our friendship. . so just forget it bahz. . i won't want to care anymore. . now i just have to put all my concentration on my studies and Tennis. . That's all. . Really hate to be so concern about my friends when they don't give a damn. . It really hurts. . (U)

Labels: What A Friend??

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3:58 PM

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My Complicate Life ♥

Have a bad headace yesterday night. . maybe i cried too much lerz. . didn't get to sleep well. . my head just hurts. . but is okie this morning although still hurts a bit. . Just called him just now. . Asking if he's feeling better today. . Wishes him Good Luck for his tournament. . Knowing that his fine today. . Stopped to worry. . knowing that he will play really well in his match. . with all his strength and effort that he had. . he will Win right?? that's the news i'm looking forward to. . Must have confidents in him right?? hahax wish to see him play. . but still. . i can't. . not in a mood?? or just still feels so hurt?? i don't know now. . think giving him moral support is what i am able to do now. . Anyway i doubt he will tell me the results after the tournament. . cause he never remembers me. . got used to it. . but yet still hoping that he will at least inform me the results later. . really want to know every single news/results about the tournament. . really wish i was there. . to watch the play. . it might be more exciting then staying at home waiting. .

Labels: OCC Tennis Tournament

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12:35 AM

♥ Saturday, November 17, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Today was a bad day for me. . DIdn't expect that to happen. . what a surprise from God ya. . haix I prayed to him. . I need Help. . I need him at the very moment. . but he wasn't there. . Felt so down. . Knowing that i shouldn't blame on God for all this happening. . Knowing that i shouldn't blame on others but myself. . For being so careless. . But still. . i can't. . i. . . all because of that particular stupid reason. . if not for that reason i might not gone through all this. . Really foolish of me ya. . Foolish Me!!! Doing all this just wanted to impress that person. . but don't think that person ever care. .It hurts so much to care tha way i do and then look at you and realise how much you don't care. . . how foolish i am still wishing something from you. . no matter is just a simple word of care or an expression at least to show that you care. . but i think is really hard ya. . cause you never ever care about me. . my heart hurts and ended up filled with full of tears. . He will never know how much i do care and worried for him. . I guess i'm just someone that is kept in some dark corner which he would never notice my presents. . no matter what. . Don't he realise how much i care?? how stupid he is. . but it doesn't matter now anymore. . i give up. . trying not to care so much. .although is hard in the beginning but i'll try. . .

Labels: Just A Word Will Do. .That All Matters. .

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3:57 PM

♥ Thursday, November 15, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Nothing to do. . Can't sleep. . decided to update this blog. . hahax were lazy to blog yesterday. . anyway didn't had anything interesting to tell you guyz. . hahax But today was indeep realli fun man!! It's Tennis!! The only thing that can brighten my day. . hahax really loved it man!! Played with Dennis. . Yvonne didn't join us. . she just watched us play. . cause she don't know how to play and no racket also. . hope she will get one for herself. . then Dennis and I can at least teach her the basic. . hahax I think i'm improving every minute man!!! Today is kinda tough due to the hard balls Dennis return. . actually i asked him to. . cause i think it ain't enough. . as in the practice. . not tough enough. . i wanted to have more improvements. . so i asked Dennis to treat me like a guy. . Served and return the ball as hard as possible. . as fast as possible. . as powerful as possible. . At first i wasn't able to return most of his balls. . i manage to return some of his balls. . but it goes side ways. . which is an out. . but after some practice. . i manage to return his balls. . which is across the net. . so kinda happy. . and the sound of the ball i hit is really nice man. . but i know i need more practice. . i want to served and return balls as powerful as i can. . at least must be like how Dennis played today. . if not how am i able to beat him. . hahax I better work twice as hard then before man!!! hahax

Overall the practice today will really cool man!!! Playing on friday again. . after school. . as well as sunday evening. . Really look forward the match on sunday with Thomas sia. . wanna show him how much i had improved. . want him to be shock. . hahax friday playing with Dennis. . Sunday playing with Dennis and Thomas. . maybe with Alan also. . see if he wanna join us. . playing at his house there mahz. . He booked the court for 7pm till 9pm. . i asked him to actually. . hahax cause Thomas will only be free after his training in the afternoon. . so is around the evening like 6 plus. . felt pretty bad to ask him to come along. . cause he need to rush back to play with us right after his training. . is tiring man. . but he say he's okie with it. . he don't mind. . but i still felt so bad. . i'm afraid that he might be tired out. . haix decided to treat him dinner. . cause he had to rush all the way. . he won't be able to take his dinner in such a rush ya. . so i'll get him his dinner then. . wondering what should i buy for him. . don't know what he likes to eat also. . hahax i'm not a good friend ya. . hahax Kinda bored now. . nothing to do lei. . listening to music. . viewing friendster. . reading others blog. . all never update also. . sianz life is so bored if without Tennis. . hahax

Labels: Tennis Tennis Tennis:D Something that might get addicted to~

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3:27 PM

♥ Tuesday, November 13, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Your Candy Heart Says

"Hug Me"

A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out.
Your heart is open to where ever love takes you!

Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out

Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking

What turns you off: fighting and conflict

Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

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11:20 AM

♥ Monday, November 12, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Now at home doing nothing. . have a great chat with cheong yew in msn. . know a lot of things about him and god. . really wishes to hear the voice of God. .wishes him to guide me. . wishes him to teach me what to do. . but i'll wait. . i'll wait for my time to come. . a relationship with God ya. . i will. . Lord i need you. . Amen.

Lord i'm willing to accept you in my life. . to be with you. . Will you accept me too?? Will you want me to be by your side?? I need to have faith in you right?? I need to believe in you. . You will be there for me. . You will have a solution to all things. . I need to trust you. . Will you have faith in me too?? Wish to hear from you. . my Lord. . Everything i need is You. .

Have to start working hard lerz. . still haven started to do my Powerpoint Presentation for Communication skills module. . gonna be real dead i think. . really don't know how to present sia. . don't really know the topic well. . have to do more research i think. . this coming wednesday is the Presentation. . kinda rush right?? actually not so. . is just that, i had been lazy doing all things recently. . so all the work are all stacked up. . it might be like a mountain bahz. . hahax But it won't happen anymore lerz. . I really wanna work hard now. . really. . this time for real. . i'll work hard for myself. . and Pray hard for my Lord. . May God bless everyone in my life. . Amen.

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8:44 AM

♥ Saturday, November 10, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Just came back not long ago. . a bit tired~~ cause after doing some workout during SW lesson. . played Tennis with dennis. . is really fun though but yet still tiring. . cause i did run alot. . manage to return most of the balls. . really feel good after playing. . it has been so long that i hadn't touch my racket. . i think i really am obsess with Tennis. . I feel so good and nice. . it is the only sport i truly enjoy and prefered. . I jusr have to build up my stamina. . as you see i don't really like running. . but for the sake of Tennis i will. . i'm doing it. . hahax is a bit hard for me in the beginning i mean running around. . my stomach will be damn pain if for long. . but slowly get used to it. . then felt better. . i'm really lousy rite?? ya i know. . i wanted to be strong too. . and i definitely will. . Wanna beat Thomas and Dennis. . they are my 1st goal bahz. . Second is to crush those school team members. . not easy ya. . even for my 1st goal. . but not to worry. . i can do it. . if i'm willing to try and practice really hard. . There's a will, There's a way. . that's what i always believe in. . hahax Dennis said he realise i'm improving every time he played with me. . todae he still ask me did i take any medicine or what sia. . cause i'm just too good laz. . =X hahax cause i run up for the ball very fast mahz. . hahax like i really have good stamina. . hahax but really miss the tennis class people. . hope to see them back in january. . hahax

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1:18 PM

♥ Wednesday, November 07, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

It is the forth day since we break lerz. . hahax yesterday after sch. . i called him. . he cried. . i think i call at the wrong time bahz. . of cause i know why he cry laz. . but i still ask him. . he say he think of me than his tears juz burst out lorz. . soO i hang the call. . want him to relax 1st. . i say i'll call back ltr. . after mui dinner i called him. . he say he finally think through lerz. . he's willing to let go. . he say he long wanted to have a younger sister. . he ask me if he can be mui god-brother. . and i say yes. . so from yesterday onwards we call each other koR koR and mei mei. . hahax now i gt another koR koR lerz. . i like have so many sia. . hehex As long as his is fine. . then i'll be fine too. . hahax

Now having Networking lesson. . but nt realli lesson laz. . like slacking sia. . doing nothing at all. . later gt Assignment to do. . about configuration stuffz derz. . i heard. . hahax nv listen to lesson is like tt derz. . everything also don't know. . hahax today gt Assignment also people tell mi derz. . i so Sotong horz. . everything also blur blur derz. . Dazing whole day in sch also. . dunno what's wrong with me also. . juz don't feel like talking. . nothing to talk about actualli. . hahax juz feel like being alone. . juz felt this way. . mui life is kinda lost right?? everything also don't know. . hahax tt's juz me bahz. . kinda miss playing tennis. . but no one to play with lei. . sad rite?? maybe too lousy ler laz. . tt's why no one wanna play with me. . hahax maybe playing this friday with dennis. . if his free. . provided if our SW teacher let us play. . last last week she don't let us play sia. . ask us play tt don't know what baseball or something. . don't know is it call baseball mahz. . hahax but kinda fun laz. . but i still prefer Tennis the best!!! realli like to play Tennis sia. . although mui stamina isn't good. . hahax but still. . enjoy it alot. . is a good pratice. . you might want to take up this sport as a CCA. . hahax i asure you will enjoy it derz. . hahax

Juz finish mui Assignment with terence. . hahax kinda easy to do laz. . but don't know got do correctly mahz. . hahax wait wrong than mui marks gone liao. . hahax but is okie laz. . next time do better can lerz. . hahax now do nothing lei. . listening to music using PSP. . meeting mui koR koR (which is mui Ex.) this friday for lunch. . hahax wanna treat him for lunch. . cuz he treat me alot lerz. . so this time is mui turn lerz. . hehex oOpPs think i better stop typing lerz. . is abit too much rite?? hahax Pai Sei laz. . cuz juz keep typing then can't stop mahz. . hahax EVANGELINE Jia You Jia You!!! I Can Do It!!! I'll Success In My Life Derz!!! Don't Give Up!!! There's A Will, There's A Way!!! Forever Stick To This. . hahax =D

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6:03 AM

♥ Monday, November 05, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

It's the Second day after we break. . he called me this morning. . he say he miss me. . he felt so much better after hearing my voice. . tt's why he called me. . he's afraid of being alone. . without me. . he's so uncomfortable. . i know. . tt's what he tell me. . tt's why i nv reject his call and everything. . i'm felt so sorry. . i dun wanna let him to be lonely. . i'll try as much as i can. . to accompany him when he's bored. . hope tt he will get used to it after a couple of months. . what will happen after a year?? will he realli give up?? i realli hope so. . i want him to continue his journey. . he have so much to do in his life. . he still young. . don't want him to be stuck there waiting for me. . i want him to be happy every now and then. .

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8:48 AM

♥ Sunday, November 04, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Todae went Jurong Bird Park with mui bf. . Opps no longer bf ler bahz. .sometimes is juz kinda hard to change wad u had used to. . but realli appreciate wad he had done for mi. . Once loved him alot. . But maybe when we are together for long, then realised that he might nt be the one i wanna spent mui entire life with. . soO we broke up after e trip to Jurong Bird Park. . at mui house. . veri peaceful. . We talk bout how we felt. . and we wishes each other happiness. . and then we both cried together. . soO stupid rite?? but we felt so much better after tt. . he say he will wait for me. . although i ask him nt too. . but he say juz for a year. . let's all depends on our fate bahz. . if we are fated to be together, no matter how many years. . no matter how long our journey we had walked. . in the end we still come back to the same circle. . to the same route. . what is meant to be yours. . it is yours. . so nothing to rush also. . hahax

Although we break lerz. . we are still best frens. . veri close frens. . hahax we misses each other. . we talk on the phone everyday. . we still care bout each other. . juz lyk close frens. . it doesn't sounds like as we realli break rite?? but we realli are. . is juz tt we are too open?? or too generous?? hahax break ler still can be frens wad. . one more fren is better than one more enemy isn't it?? hahax But he stills misses me so much. . i know. . everytime he thinks of me his tears juz falls from his emotional eyes. . his heart is juz too fragile to be hurt. . unable to bear. . so much to say. . but yet dunno how to express. . Once loved me soO much. . till now. . still remains the same. . i'm realli bad right?? how could i?? how could i break his heart?? how could i bear to hurt him?? how could i bear to see him cry?? Truly i am bad huhh. . i realli can't bear to do so. . but i still do so. . cuz i realli can't decieve myself. . i noe tt if i ignore my feeling. . my uncomfortable. . i'll go crazy one day. . juz felt so heartbreak. . for now wad i am able to say is Sorry. . Realli felt soO Sorry to him. . hope he will understand. . I'm Realli Sorrie. .

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12:12 PM

♥ Friday, November 02, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

A boring dae for everi thursday. . . realli bored?? or juz felt something is missing. . i dun realli noe. . juz felt tt way. . let's c wad hav i been doin todae. . ermmm. . reach sch at 8.30?? ya i tink soO. . mayb earlier den tt. . hahax i'm a punctual student worz =X sometimes onli laz. . hahax. . late at times too. . hehex earli in the morning of sch started with a Test. . kinda turn mui dae down ya. . But thk God i did revise yesterdae night till 1.20am Ohh. . see i so hardworking. . hahax The truth is i didn't even realli studied during lessons =X bad gal rite?? juz kinda lazy mahz. . prefer study by muiself. . hahax

Oh Ya!! haven sae wad Test rite?? hahax Is Computing Math---->>>>Chapter 1 & 2 nt realli difficult actualli, to mi this two chapters is the most easiest of all chapters bahz. . Make two careless mistakes todae sia. . feel like dying liao sia. . if nt i tink i could score full marks lorz. . wad a waste man!! Didn't realli check through den juz submit lerz. . But wad is done is done. . i can't do anything bout it. . juz hav to be more careful the next time round. . hahax

After the next went for a two hours break sia. . cuz once finished den can go off ler mahz. . so still left bout 2 hours. . alot rite?? went for an earli lunch lyk 11++, after tt loiter around the sch. .hahax went to the sports stadium, sit there do nothing. . listen to music in mui PSP. . blast the music damn loud sia. . mui ears gonna go deaf liao. . hahax But juz kinda enjoy it. . hearing music so loud. . feel like goin to KBox lei. . wanna sing & sing. . hahax enjoy singing all the time. .but dun realli sing well laz. . always sing to muiself. .
when listening to musics. .
when bathing. .
when mui mind is blank and suddenly a song juz came pass mui mind. .
when i miss someone. .
when memories flow through mui head. .
when i'm alone doin nothing. .
when i'm down. .
when i'm so alive. .
when i'm happy. .
Musics is part of mui life that can never be without. .
So if No Music = Isn't Me =D

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9:16 AM