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♥ Saturday, December 29, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Back from school!!! Was early today. . Know why?? Cause Yvonne, Elizabeth and Chiu Rei wanna catch a movie. . They didn't ask me beforehand also. . So I didn't join them. . Got a lot of work to finish also. . hahax The Youth camp is near. . 5 more days!!! Is damn fast laz. . Really don't feel like joining the camp lei. . Like so boring. . Haven even prepared yet. . Kinda scare also. . I always don't feel comfortable during all camps. . Felt uneasy. . Felt left out. . So scare to be alone. . I hate all this feelings!!! Some more is a 3 Days 2 Nights camp. . Will be camping in ITE College East!!! Back to school again!!! Go for school almost everyday, even during holidays. . Camp also in school. . even worst. .

ITE College East is really my second home man!!!
Studied there. .
Spent holidays there. .
Sleep there. .
OMG!!!!
What can I say??
That's my lofe!!!
hahax

Supposed to pratice TENNIS today with Dennis. . It was canceled last minute. . Haix~ Received a SMS from Dennis saying that he can't make it this morning. . His mother needs his help or something. . So didn't get to pratice today. . Haix~ I was so excited yesterday. . knowing that i'm gonna pratice TENNIS the next day. . And yet. . Haix~ I think no one knows how I felt laz. . My mood is like, happily walking towards a place and accidently fell down in a deep deep well. . So deep and down kinda feeling laz. . It has been damn long since I had my last practice. . So ya. . just felt that when I receive Dennis SMS. . Haix~ But is alright laz. . Can't blame him also. . Just hope that i'm able to play next week lorz.. But next week got camp. . Haix~

This whole weeks just isn't me. . I just felt so EMO here and there. . Everyday, every minute, every second. . Lots of thoughts went through my mind. . Finding an answer which were no where found. . Trying hard to figure it out. . But yet still confused. .

Trying to give up. .
I have to give up. .
Just friends will do. .
Normal friends. . Too normal to be even noticed. .
Keep telling myself that. .

A friend that he would never remember??
Felt sad after realising that. .

What can I do??
Does he even noticed?? No, he won't. .
How could he notice when he doesn't even remember??
Does he really understands??
Understand how I really felt??
Everytime I saw him. .
Everytime I miss him. .
Everytime I think of him. .
Does he knows??
He will never know how I felt. .
He will never. .

But right now. .
I'm ok. .
I really am now. .
Only with GOD. .
Only with JESUS. .
With them around. .
I'll be fine. .
I'll be alright. .
I'm willing to give up. .
Knowing that he and I. .
He and I will have no results. .
Will never happen. .
I'm willing to give up. .
Giving up the feelings for him. .
To GOD. .
Knowing that only GOD are able to heal my sorrows. .
Knowing that only GOD have all answers to my heart. .
I believe in him. . Which is GOD. .
I thrust in him. . Which is GOD. .
Open Heart, Open Mind. .
Just for you. .
O' GOD My LORD

Labels: I'll be alright. ., With GOD

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8:20 AM

♥ Thursday, December 27, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

I'm BACK AGAIN!!! Didn't had the time to update recently. . SoO soO SORRY for those who visited my blog. . Had a great CHRISTMAS this year!!! The first time spending CHRISTMAS with you GOD!!! I LOVE YOU GOD!! I LOVE JESUS!! Was really glad that I'm there. . I felt so touched by you GOD, while holding the candle of light. . Really I am. .

Thank you GOD for blessing my family and I. .
Thank you GOD for giving me a New Life. .
A Life started with you GOD. .
I'm reborn again because of you GOD. .
I'll love you GOD more than ever before. .
I'll know you more than ever before. .
I put all my thrust in you GOD. .
All my faith in you GOD. .
My whole body, soul, mind and heart. .
GOD you may used me as you want. .
I'm attach to you GOD. .

GOD you sent your only son JESUS CHRIST to die on the cross for us. . He suffered to redeem all our SINS. .
GOD thank you for loving us so much. . JESUS thank you for all that you had done for us. .
I love you both. . So much more than loving myself GOD. .

I shall be self-less. .
I shall not be self-centered but GOD-centered. .
I shall give my all. .
All that I had. .
All that I am. .
I'll give you all GOD. .

PRAISE THE LORD. .

Labels: LOVE YOU GOD

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4:14 PM

♥ Tuesday, December 18, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

I'm back again. . Was kinda busy. . So didn't had the chance to update. . Hahax Now in SUN COT having "Holidays". . Sad right?? Hahax Going on Service Camp on January 3, 4, and 5. . SICT organise derz. . Leadership camp. . Don't feel like going sia. . Don't really like camps. . Hahax

Went to City Harvest on Sunday. . Service preach by Pastor Kong, get to learn a lot from him . . His said something which make an impact on me. . Hahax He said this---->>> Tradition to Transistion to Transformation. . He explain it with actions. . Hahax Stamping the stage with his feet. . A real hard one. . Loud and clear. . Hahax Wonder does his feets hurts?? Hahax Hope not. .

A guest came to share with us her testimony too. . She's Richell (Sorr, if I get the spelling wrong.), forgot about her life story lerz. . (Sorry) But I remember what she said about GOD. . She said, there is once she saw a bright light shines on her. . And she heard a voice. . It says, "I'm GOD, I love You.". From then, her parents reads her the Bible a chapter a day. .

Richell was talented in Singing as GOD's gift. . She started writing her 1st song when she was 6 years old. . If i'm not wrong. . And recorded 2 ablums when she was 12 years old. . which is her age now. . Heard her singing. . Was really great!!! Her song touches me. . I almost cried. . She was really braved. . GOD loves her, GOD protected her. . GOD keep her safe. . GOD gives her the great voice to sing and share GOD's love to us. . Thank You GOD. . Thank You for blessing such a sweet girl. . Thank You for being with her always. . PRAISE THE LORD, Amen.

Thank You GOD for blessing each and everyone of us. . Thank You for answerings to our prayers. . We loves you as you always do. . Bless Us GOD Amen.

Alright got to go back to work lerz. . If not i'm dead man!!! Hahax Jia You Jia You!!!

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7:25 AM

♥ Saturday, December 15, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Is holidays lerz. . But didn't have the time to enjoy. . Have to go back school for Imagine Cup project. . Today felt restless. . Felt the emptiness inside me. .Felt so alone. . I was always alone isn't it?? I don't know. . Maybe just too bored?? Doing nothing now. . Or I have things to do. . But just didn't want to?? I don't know. . I think if I had lost something today, it will be myself. . Lost of laughters, emotions, life. . It was hard to be a lively me today. . Just felt this way. . I will be fine right?? Ya, I will. . Will be fine. . Will be alright. .

Today mummy wanted to clean all walls of the house. . So I have to clean my too. . I was lazy. . Hate to do housework. . Not a good wife to be ya. . hahax I only clean those parts of the wall with some stains in my room. . The rest is cleaned by my mummy. . I just don't feel like doing anything today. . Not in a mood to?? Ya, maybe?? Moody me again?? Ya, maybe?? Trying to adjust my mood now. . Wonder how's the Tennis tournament Spex on this month. . If i'm not wrong it had started and ended. . Or maybe ending soon. . Really wanna learn more about Tennis stuffs. . Be it a tournament, results, news, skills, rackets, knowledge. . Just anything related to Tennis. . I MISS IT!!! Miss it so much. .

Haven been praticing Tennis for quite some time lerz. . Hope my skills doesn't deproved. . Was training more on physical alone at home. . Wanna be stronger. . Wanna train to have more strength. . So had physical training for myself. . After christmas. . Once christmas is over. . Gonna train more on both Tennis and physical. . Don't wanna lose out to others. . As Tennis is really something important right now in my life. . I don't know why also. . I'm not in the school team. . I'm not in any tournaments. . But yet training so hard. . Why?? I don't know too. . Just love to play Tennis. . Not just playing. . In a serious manner. . I think I just Love It. . Working hard. . Not for anyone. . But myself. . Always happy and felt good when playing Tennis. . What a great sport. . hahax TENNIS ROCKS MY LIFE!!!

Labels: Holidays Just Started~~ Yet. . .

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9:38 AM

♥ Friday, December 14, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Yo Hoz!! I'm back to blog again!!! hahax NO MORE Test or Exams lerz. . Yeah!!! A brand new year awaiting for me!!! A new life. . Everyday spending time with GOD. . I think i'll love my life ahead. . A brand new one. . hahax Letting the past go is a relieve too. . = )

Didn't do well for todays Class test and Assignment 2 for CMath. . Studied till 3 a.m. plus. . Woke up at 6.30 a.m. Only slept for 3 hours. . But wasn't really tired at all. . hahax In fact more awale. . Maybe I shouldn't sleep too long ya. . hahax Today Hwa Foo pass me all his notes for CMath. . So nice of him. . hahax Gotta study hard the coming year. . And this time is for real man!!

Getting more fatter now. . Need more training I think. . Wanna be stronger and slimmer. . hahax It's hard though. . But i'll try my best!!! Evangeline can do it!!! hahax Wanna ask Mr. Roger to train me on Tennis. . He's Really Good man!!! Sure will have great improvements under his training. . hahax Wanna Be Tennis Pro!!! Dream on?? Maybe not~~ Must have confidence. . hahax Evangeline Jia You Jia You!!! hehex

Labels: CMath Class Test_Assignment 2

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8:56 AM

♥ Wednesday, December 12, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Waka Waka!!! Feeling good today. . Why?? Cause I. . Think through. . Shouldn't waste my time and energy on ***. Cause I know there won't be any outcome. . So decided to let go. . Of my feelings. . No longer felt moody. . No longer felt tired. . I'm alright now. . I'm gonna be back. . Back to myself again. . Always cheerful and happy. . hahax

Friends is always the best I think. .
No matter if you are close or far from each other. .
No matter how long have not contact each other. .
No matter how much we have changed. .
Our friendship is still there. .
Somehow somewhere. .
We will still remember each other. .
And follow by a smile. .
Trying to recall back memories. .
That might had forgotten long ago. .
And starts laughing about it. .
hahahax
~~Never Ending Friendship~~

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3:36 AM

♥ Tuesday, December 11, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

In SUN COT now. . Kinda bored, so decided to update. . Didn't have much appetite today. . Never eat for breakfast and lunch. . Wait for dinner bahz. . Still so early now. . I cried yesterday, while watching the Korea Drama, "LOVERS 恋人". Is so touching. . Think of myself too. . hahax Those people who loves Korea Drama shall not miss this. . More Details------>>>>

Cast: Lee Seo Jin as Ha Kang Jae

Kim Jung Eun as Yoon Mi Joo

Jung Chan as Kang Sae Yeon

Kim Kyu Ri as Park Yu Jin

Synopsis: Yoon Mi Joo, daughter of a village pastor in one of the islands of Korea, worked her way to become a plastic surgeon. Although successful, she needs to support 6 adopted brothers and sisters back home, so she leads a frugal life in Seoul. Kang Jae, adopted by the boss of a secret society since teenage years, is a senior member of the same secret society. He has a long-time girlfriend, Yu Jin, whom he loves but refused to marry.

Sae Yeon is the playboy son of Kang Jae's boss.Kang Jae met Mi Joo when she mistook him for her pregnant sister's boyfriend. Mi Joo had wanted to confront her sister's boyfriend for dumping her sister, but Kang Jae and his gang helped her to beat him up and Mi Joo was impressed. Their paths crossed again when Mi Joo found that Kang Jae's girlfriend, Yu Jin, is her neighbour. At the same time, Sae Yeon was being matchmaked with Mi Joo by his mother, and he began to take a liking with Mi Joo.Later, Mi Joo found that Kang Jae is the person who wanted to buy the land that her father's house is on.

She met him and his right-hand man for a talk, but was being attacked by Kang Jae's enemies. Kang Jae, in order to protect her, was stabbed. Mi Joo, despite having sweared not to be involved in people's life and death, saved Kang Jae's life and nursed him back to health in the village. Their paths crossed again in China's Hainan Island, when Mi Joo accepted Sae Yeon's invitation to have "Cha Jiang" noodles there, and Kang Jae was there to bring Sae Yeon back to Korea.

As the story developed, Mi Joo and Kang Jae found themselves falling in love with each other despite finding out that Yu Jin is pregnant with Kang Jae's child, and despite Sae Yeon declaring his love for Mi Joo and Mi Joo accepted his short courtship. Fortunately or unfortunately, Yu Jin miscarriaged and Sae Yeon gave them his blessings. However, life has more in store for Kang Jae when he found out that his boss is actually and his father, and Sae Yeon was actually not his boss's son. After that a violent power struggle broke out in the gang, resulting in the death of his father. In a bid to seek revenge, Kang Jae hurt his enemy and was jailed.Kang Jae and Mi Joo finally got together after his release.

The story REALLY VERY NICE!!! Is a MUST to watch laz. . Get to learn a lot about relationship stuffs through this drama. =)

Labels: LOVERS 恋人

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3:38 AM

♥ Sunday, December 09, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Just came back from City Harvest. . I enjoyed every services, even for today service too. . Was really great. . Although was a bit sleepy. . But I ate Choccolate to keep me awake. . hahax I bought DARS-Bitter Chocolate before I went for the service. . Is nice but not bitter enough. . hahax Today's service was preach by Rev. Dr. John Avanzini, he's the most widely-published author and teacher on the subject of biblical economics and deft-free living. hahax I'm really glad that I was there for the service. . Learned a lot from Dr. John, especially a phase that he says "As long as you can see it, you will get it." He preach a lot about Genisis chapter 3 in the bible. . About Adam and Eve. hahax I still can remember about that chapter, so I understands what he's talking about. . hahax I love one of the song sung today during the service, "You're Faithful" it goes like this:

You're faithful, You're faithful.
You're faithful, Your joy is my strength.
Always you're with me, Your hands will lead me.
My thrust is in your name.
You're faithful, You're faithful.
You're faithful, Your joy is my strength.

GOD is faithful, Will us be faithful to GOD?? I may not know about others. But I knew myself. . I'll be faithful to GOD. My All in All. . He's my strength, he's the ONLY One who leads me to him and throughout my life. . I place all my Thrust in him. . My everything. . My life. . My fate. . He loves us. . And I love him too!!! Enjoying every minute with him, building a relationship with GOD. . He's always there for me. . I can feel it. . Thank You GOD. In Jesus Name I Pray, Amen

Labels: Preach by Rev. Dr. John Avanzini, Saturday Service

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12:48 PM

♥ Wednesday, December 05, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Back to update. . Were busy for the past two days. . So didn't have time to update?? Or i'm just don't feel like to. . I don't know~~ It just feels like so long. . Something missing for so long. . Might be a person or a thing?? And I know what it is. . Just that I. . I'm just trying to hide. . Hide that feeling. . Trying to decieve myself. . Telling myself is okie. .Is really okie. . Trying not to notice. . But I know it myself. . Is hard. . Still manage to hide the feelings in my heart. . Deep in. . Always wandering around the school. . Searching for it. . Something just felt missing. . I don't know. . I don't wanna know. . Mind were blank. . Dazing all the time. . Trying not to. . But only felt better when i'm in prayers. . When i'm sharing my feelings with GOD. . GOD please guide me throughout my life. . I need you. . So much that are unable to count. . GOD bless me. . Bless Us, All of Us. . Amen.

Today was amazing. . I didn't sleep during Networking Lecture. . I usually will fall asleep no matter what. . But today I wasn't. . I'm awake throughout the lecture. . Praise The Lord, Amen. Yesterday during my prayers, I ask GOD for the power to lift up my head, if I felt sleeping. I ask GOD to give me the concentrations that I need. . And he did!! GOD answers to my prayers. . I wasn't tired at all today. . I pay attention during the whole lecture. . It was Great ya. . That's how powerful GOD can be. . He loves Us. . Love Us All. . ThankYou GOD. . Thank You for being there for me. . Praise The Lord Amen.

Now I got to get back to my studies. . Thursday is my Class Test for Networking. . Haven been studying much recently. . SO i better buck up now. . Although is SO last minute laz. . But i'll still try my best!! I'll pray for my Thursday Class Test too!!! Gotta faster study man!! Cause I wanna Continue my Bible reading. . hahax EVANGELINE Jia You!!! I CAN DO IT!! hahax

Labels: Praise The Lord Amen

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11:25 AM

♥ Monday, December 03, 2007

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Back home!!! Was late again!! Was suppose to meet Xiao Ting (Cell Group Leader) at 9.15 a.m. The Service starts at 9.30 a.m. Guess what?? I reach there at exactly 9.30. . And the service was already started few minutes ago. . Sianz~ But thank God it wasn't the preaching yet. . Just singing that's all. . hahax Today Pastor Kong Hee were the one preaching. . This was the first time I met him. . He was a funny person. . And his words are powerful to me. . I really listen to what he's saying. . Every Word and Expression he made. . Is really an big impact for me. . I get to know a bit more about GOD and Jesus through him. . Is was amazing. . I can remember what he said. . Those verses from the Bible. . hahax

After the City Harvest service, waited for 15 minutes I think. . Waiting for elizabeth. . She busy with her new Notebook at home, forgot the time that we are supposed to meet till I called her. . She then rush out of her house. . hahax Went to FCBC straight after she reach. . When to meet her cell group leader. . Was kinda weird laz. . Cause the service haven even start yet so many people was standing infront of the gate. . Guess what are they doing?? They were trying to rush in to BOOK seats!! Is like. . First time see this kinda thing sia. . I don't know if City harvest to the same. . Booking seats?? But is weird laz. . hahax So the cell group leader of elizabeth ask us to run or walk faster to book the seats infront. . So I was like errrr~~ Then I grab on elizabeth's bag. . Cause I was kinda scare. . Elizabeth run damn fast man!! I almost trip lorz. . Is like so~~ I don't know how to explain man. . What's the rush sia?? hahax Never mind. . In the end we still gets good seats. . Though not so front laz. . hahax

A person named Nick, is the one who's gonna preach today. . He's disable. . Borned without legs and hands. . Kinda sad right?? But i'm not sad at all. . Cause I know he isn't too. . GOD created him this way, GOD wants to use him to tell us something that we might not know about GOD. . He's blessed by GOD. . He really is. . So am I. . So does all of us. . All being blessed. . Nick shared his life story with us. . And shared the relationship between him and GOD. . I really learned a lot through him. . I'm glad that i'm here for this service. . Thanks to Elizabeth. . Thank You GOD. . Praise The Lord Amen

Trust GOD
Have Faith In GOD
Have Confidents In God
Believe In GOD
GOD Is All We Need
Love GOD
Recieve GOD In Our Life And Our Hearts
Amen

Labels: Sunday Services

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10:02 AM

♥ Sunday, December 02, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

At Aunt's house now. . Kinda bored. . Nothing to do here man!!! Were chatting with Thomas in MSN just now. . Kinda worried for him. . He's dissapointed. . He didn't get to play in the coming December Tournament. . That's why he's sad. . I know how it feels. . But I really don't know how to cheer him up. . Is like I'm scare~~ I'm scare that every word that i say will make him even sadder. . Is like I wanted to cheer him up and yet I can't do anything. . I don't know what to say. . What a friend I am. . Can't even let them feel better when they are down. . I'm such a lousy friend. . Really hope that he'll be fine. . I'll keep him in my prayers. . Thomas don't be upset kkz. . There's always other chances for you to join other tournaments. . So Jia You kkz!! I'll always be available if you need my help or what. . That's what friends are for. . Keep that in mind. . Feel free to find me when you need someone to talk to. . Don't keep everything inside your heart. . Cheer Up Thomas!!!

Labels: Dissapointment~

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1:15 PM

♥ Saturday, December 01, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Morning!! Going afternoon lerz. . hahax like so long never update ler sia. . But is only been two days. . hahax Now doing nothing in school. . waiting for lunch and project in Sun COT after that. . hahax So decided to update my blog. . hahax Wednesday went to the seminar about Content Protection at Shangri-la Hotel Singapore. . Though the talk is kinda boring. . But the FOOD there were a delicious!!! hahax We had three tea-breaks and one lunch. . Alot ya. . Growing fatter ler sia. . I loves the cakes and the fruit tart. . I ate three fruit tart lorz. . hahax Is really NICE man!! hahax But during our last tea-break we run away~~ Felt so bad man. . Is like kinda rude to just escape like that without informing them. . Cause it was really boring lorz. . So Mr. Adam decided to leave. . He ask if we wanna go off. . All of us agree. . So he ask us go to the restroom take of the lanyard that we are wearing. . Then just go off like that. . hahax And we did!! So pai sei sia. . hahax It was raining heavily that day. . We took a cabbie to the Shaw center. . Catch a Movie at shaw house. . Cause didn't know where to go. . So decided to catch a movie. . They wanted to watch the Bee Movie. . But didn't have any nice seats. . Instead we get tickets for ENCHANTED!!! That's the movie I wanna watch man!! Watch with Rudy Ka Yan and Saiful hahax The movie is so nice lorz. . Although the story is predictable laz. . But yet still so SWEET and FUNNY!! Will regret if I didn't watch it. . hahax I won't mind to watch again. . Anyone?? hahax

This Sunday will be going down City Harvest for service at 9.30 a.m, ends around 12 noon. . After that going to Elizabeth church fcbc?? Did i spell it wrongly?? Hard to remember laz. . Anyway is just beside City Harvest. . Elizabeth church is the afternoon service. . at 1.30 I think till don't know what time. . If i'm not wrong is till 3.30 bahz. . So going to two churches on that day. . Kinda busy. . hahax after that don't know where to go lei. . Elizabeth doesn't want to go out after that. . She wants to go home. . So I have no date after that. . Sianz sia. . Nevermind~~ Can save money$$ too. . hahax Need to save up a lot for Christmas man!! Need to buy present for a gathering. . Exchange present laz. . that's what Huini say. . We will be going Chiu Rei's house to play. . Date and Time not yet decide. . hahax Then gonna make cookies and chocolates for friends too. . hahax Gonna broke on christmas man!! hahax Wanna learn how to make muffins and Cheese cakes. . I'm gonna bake them the next Christmas. . Which is next year. . hahax If I had master the skills of cause. . hahax Don't have to worry. . Sure can do it derz. . hahax Cause i'm smart!!! hahax I Can Do it!! There's a will, There's a way~~~ hehex

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3:48 AM