Back from school!!! Was early today. . Know why?? Cause Yvonne, Elizabeth and Chiu Rei wanna catch a movie. . They didn't ask me beforehand also. . So I didn't join them. . Got a lot of work to finish also. . hahax The Youth camp is near. . 5 more days!!! Is damn fast laz. . Really don't feel like joining the camp lei. . Like so boring. . Haven even prepared yet. . Kinda scare also. . I always don't feel comfortable during all camps. . Felt uneasy. . Felt left out. . So scare to be alone. . I hate all this feelings!!! Some more is a 3 Days 2 Nights camp. . Will be camping in ITE College East!!! Back to school again!!! Go for school almost everyday, even during holidays. . Camp also in school. . even worst. . ITE College East is really my second home man!!! Studied there. . Spent holidays there. . Sleep there. . OMG!!!! What can I say?? That's my lofe!!!hahaxSupposed to pratice TENNIS today with Dennis. . It was canceled last minute. . Haix~ Received a SMS from Dennis saying that he can't make it this morning. . His mother needs his help or something. . So didn't get to pratice today. . Haix~ I was so excited yesterday. . knowing that i'm gonna pratice TENNIS the next day. . And yet. . Haix~ I think no one knows how I felt laz. . My mood is like, happily walking towards a place and accidently fell down in a deep deep well. . So deep and down kinda feeling laz. . It has been damn long since I had my last practice. . So ya. . just felt that when I receive Dennis SMS. . Haix~ But is alright laz. . Can't blame him also. . Just hope that i'm able to play next week lorz.. But next week got camp. . Haix~ This whole weeks just isn't me. . I just felt so EMO here and there. . Everyday, every minute, every second. . Lots of thoughts went through my mind. . Finding an answer which were no where found. . Trying hard to figure it out. . But yet still confused. . Trying to give up. . I have to give up. .Just friends will do. . Normal friends. . Too normal to be even noticed. .Keep telling myself that. . A friend that he would never remember?? Felt sad after realising that. .What can I do??Does he even noticed?? No, he won't. .How could he notice when he doesn't even remember??Does he really understands??Understand how I really felt??Everytime I saw him. .Everytime I miss him. .Everytime I think of him. .Does he knows??He will never know how I felt. .He will never. .But right now. .I'm ok. .I really am now. .Only with GOD. .Only with JESUS. .With them around. .I'll be fine. .I'll be alright. .I'm willing to give up. .Knowing that he and I. .He and I will have no results. .Will never happen. .I'm willing to give up. .Giving up the feelings for him. .To GOD. .Knowing that only GOD are able to heal my sorrows. .Knowing that only GOD have all answers to my heart. .I believe in him. . Which is GOD. .I thrust in him. . Which is GOD. .Open Heart, Open Mind. .Just for you. .O' GOD My LORDLabels: I'll be alright. ., With GOD
